As a frontline worker, my anger over the Tories’ handling of Covid has not abated | Letter

I am a midwife who still feels extreme anger about the way the pandemic was handled (Johnson government wasted £10bn on PPE, Covid inquiry finds, 14 July).I remember being fitted for a FFP3 mask and then being told there weren’t enough to go around and given a basic paper mask instead. I remember being told that the hospital where I worked couldn’t keep providing clean scrubs, so I had to take my potentially infected scrubs home to wash instead. I remember management shutting computers down to enforce social distancing, then reopening them when they realised we needed those computers to do our jobs.I remember being sent into homes where people had Covid to see new mums and babies, and wondering if I was going to die as a result. I remember Tory MPs joking that surely all workplaces were having social drinks after work. We weren’t: we had a staffroom about 2 metres by 1 metre for 20 members of staff, and had to supply our own washing-up liquid. We rushed home as fast as we could after our shifts to scrub off the infection so as not to endanger our families.My huge anger remains. And I did not get a bonus. I didn’t even get paid particularly well. Hearing about the staggering sums squandered by Boris Johnson’s government, I feel as angry as ever. It is not unexpected, but it makes me reluctant to trust any government ever again. I hope Johnson is rightly ashamed of his legacy, although I doubt he is.Laura MatthewsWest Wickham, London